Thursday, 28 February 2013
Simplicity
Thursday, 14 February 2013
Fatherhood
Freddy, Jamhuri High School (99) made me
believe High School was fun. He is now a religious brother. However, it is his
escapades then that made me realize it wasn’t as bad as it was made to sound.
In fact he made me have an inkling of what high school was all about. Instead
of guiding me through puberty as my mum requested of him(being a single mom),
he just put it out there that he din’t struggle through adolescence. The funny
thing is, I did not either. I believe since he made it such a small deal, I
din’t see the need to stress about it. True, I could see class 8s and form 2s
go through their hormonal moments. I did not.
After KCPE is when you find out you have no
clue as to what the next stage of life is all about. At least in my case. I
had, and still do, lived a contained life. My interactions could not suffice to
provide such knowledge as is gleamed when boys hang out with bro ya Kamash.
Ergo, why Freddy stands out. His stories, and dyed hair are what gave me an
idea of what it entailed and that made all the difference.
I am that kind of person. I want to have an
idea before I leap. Don’t get me wrong. I don’t take time to hear the details,
the basics will do. I will ask you about how to operate the parachute when we
are mid-air. Ask Ujo.
Call it quarter-life crisis but due to my
choice to concentrate on music, and writing, I have been rubbing my folks the
wrong way. Sometimes one gets through such moments, knowing that their fears (I
spend time with other people’s daughters every night and not at studio as I
claim) are far-fetched and irrational.
Other times however, it hits you that they
could be right. That your friend who you met at the Junction the other day is
now about to be promoted to PR Manager for Harun Mwau simply because he started
off the blocks immediately after graduation while you were still trying out this
writing/music thing.
At such moments I begin wondering where my
baby(small, tiny, baby) will sleep and what he will eat when I am 30. I wonder
what my wife will think of me when this dream proves to be just that, a dream
that I need to wake up from.
Pssst! Most of the people I graduated with
are now going through that stage. Where you see photos and updates on
facebook-engaged, married, with baby etc. No,I am serious. It starts hitting
you that you are next. My 35-year old uncle is yet to marry though. Some
consolation. He keeps my grandmother too worried to start throwing those hints.
Plus he is breaking the psychological barrier.
I digressed, (hence the psst) There is no
salvation at that point, just some few cling-ons that keep you sane as you try
to figure out what to tell yourself to soothe your spirit.
I however bumped into Biko Zulu’s blog. He
provides those once in a lifetime moments when you realize being old can be
cool. Last time I felt that, I was reading Wasonga’s article on Pudding. Before
then, it was listening to Jamo on Hopefm.
These people make you realize, it can all
be taken in stride. Which you know, just that you tend to forget. If I have
never asked my readers to do anything (buy tickets to a Lele concert or read
Sharon’s blog) then do read this blog. For the sake of fulfilling your
psychological need for credibility, it was nominated for a BAKE Award in the
same category as Crazy Nairobian. It is read by great bloggers a la Karaymi and
Mrs.Mwiti.
Think of the people who helped you move
from one point to the next and be grateful. Later!
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